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Was erwartet der Mensch, in diesem Fall also meine Winzigkeit, vom Leben?

Zufriedenheit ist wohl das mindeste. Gl�cklichsein schon die Steigerung des Wunsches. Euphorie ein bisschen viel verlangt.

Was habe ich? Zufriedene Tage, gl�ckliche Stunden, euphorische Momente. Also ist doch alles gut. NEIN! schreit meine innere Stimme, denn heute sehe ich nicht, was ich habe und, was ich mir w�nsche bleibt ein Traumgespinst, denn ich f�hle nicht, was ich erlebe.

Selektiv steuert mein Hirn mein Empfinden, macht klein, was gut h�tte werden k�nnen, zieht in Zweifel, was wahrscheinlich anders gemeint war. Ein hingesagtes Wort liegt zentnerschwer auf meiner inneren Goldwaage, eine unbedachte Geste wird sinnschwanger auf ihre negative Energie be�ugt, ein sch�ner Moment wird in den Zusammenhang der Stunde gestellt in der er passierte und verliert an Glanz. Diese Sicht ist ungerecht gegen den mit dem ich Zeit verbrachte und sie ist unfair gegen mich selbst.

Doch sie ist heute so. Daran �ndert nicht, dass ich k�rperlich begehrt, intelektuell gefordert und emotional gebraucht wurde. Es gibt solche Tage, sie nicht �berzubewerten, ist mein Wunsch. Sie bald anders zu erinnern, w�re Gl�ck. Zu erfahren, dass Andere, die sie mit mir erlebt haben, sie anders sp�ren, w�re Grund genug f�r Euphorie.

�Hi people I'm back I'm sorry I haven't been on i was sick and now I'm feeling better so I'm backs I am really depressed but I hope i don't bring you guys down with me I'm used to being alone when I'm sad no one not even my friends notice.

i don't know why, but i feel like...

I want to be sexy i want to be attractive and fit kind of the complete opposite of right now....bloated and tired UGH!!! watched the biggest loser tonight so inspiring those people lost not one of me but two!! and all I have to lose is like five pounds......not that i need to lose weight just need to tone and get my ass back into the gym!! thursday baby thursday

Good day at the internship today but off to sleep exhasted!

Honestly guys ,tell me what kind of girls attract u? What kind of wife do u really treasure?�What kind of partner would make u stay faithful in the marriage and not cheat?

I'm stubborn - I believe that there are really fun loving, outgoing guys out there who actually likes their opposite - a girl who is demure and sweet. I'm an Aries , but I'm a quiet and shy Aries, yet I'm always attracted to people who are very 'sunshine' type , loves sports, looks hot....but I often find that the guys I like are quite playboys and they don't like quiet girls!

Hey but I also believe I DESERVE a great man.

My mom asked me last week while I was home what was important to me? what did I want? took a while for me to answer but I really want happiness I want babies and a husband I want a photo studio I want an amazing partner in life I want a lot!! hahaha!�

Natalie came to visit this weekend and it was nice to have a different friend around she is so funny and kind and sweet was a nice break to have her visit sf....and the man bitching was fantastic!! and hopefull :) I think everyone wants the same thing it's just a timing thing it happens when you are ready no matter how much I want it right now to all just happen it really is a journey and a fun one at that!! I like the unexpected!

�Well i got to go ttyl

�okay this is a duet poem that me and my boyfriend made hope you like

One

as we drift away from each other

her love stays with me as I leave

his love stays with me as I cry

I know things are hard

and I know things are right

but as I touch the glass looking back

I collapse and drift out of sight

I stop and run to her

feeling his presents I wake

I hug her for comfourt

and I cry knowing this is true love

as I hold her I look into her eyes

the broken hart he is mending

the empty soul she is filling

The love he has for me

and the love she has for me

he lays a kiss on the cheek

and she hugs me

I hope he doesn't leave

and I hope she doesn't cry

The love we have for each other

stays with her

and stays with him

for all etrunaty we shall only love one another

�Hays Im back today is sucking I hate school the computers are slow and I have to walk in the blow zero weather and almost freezed my legs off�and i have a major head ack

����� Friendship is a wonderful thing to share,

������ You will alaways have someone you can turn to

������� In times of heart aches.

������� Friends are always willing to listen to your� woes,

������� They will cry wiith ,laugh with you and share joy

�������� with you.

�������� We carry them in our hearts in a special way.

�������� so always be my friend till the end.

������������������� Wrote by: satinlady(AKA Hilda)